It’s been almost three years since my last blog entry. That’s one hell of a writer’s block. Truth is, I lost my inspiration. I lost my sense of self.
When you make the life-changing decision to have children, you never think that one day you’ll be raising them on your own. Enter in fear and anger. Instead of accepting the situation for what it was, I became bitter as hell. Here I was stuck with all the responsibility, while my ex got to live the bachelor life. I despised him.
Hate is an ugly emotion. If left to fester, it will rot you to the core. All the stress was physically making me a wreck. I gained weight, couldn’t sleep, took life for granted. I snapped at my kids. At times, I resented them.
I turned 36 on January 1st, and I made a promise. I would become unstuck. One month in, and my life is already changing. No more feeling angry and defeated. No more focusing on what I can’t change. God has blessed me with two amazing daughters. They deserve a mom who is happy and positive…..someone who cherishes every day with them.
My ex didn’t ruin me. He set me free. Life is a precious gift, and I have so much to offer others. In a world full of fake and dishonest people, I’m proud of who I am. I’m the real deal. It’s time I start carrying myself as such.
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